sinead is a funny gal

discussing the big day out lineup:
"oh yeah, isn't rise against the machine playing? aren't they one of your favourite bands?"

learning guitar:
"is b a chord?"

I am going to miss her so much.

i love police 10/7

severely intoxicated man who has just been pulled out of a bush:
just listen to me for a minute yeah
policeman:
alright then
drunk man:
you're gonna fucking hit me man? fucking hit me?
bewildered policeman:
why would i wanna hit you?
confused drunk man:
just, just listen to me for a minute, i've been feeding my cat for a year and a half.. and it couldn't make a difference. could it? i've gotta feed my cat.

- pause in the conversation-

policeman:
alright we're gonna take you back to the station.

- at the station -

drunk man:
oh. i've pissed myself.
policeman:
you pissed yourself?
genuinely remorseful drunk man:
i've pissed myself, oh i'm sorry i've pissed myself

- 5 minutes later -

angry drunk man:
you're a fucking idiot
policeman:
that's enough now.

woooo

english: A-, A, A
sociology: A
linguistics: A
anthropology: A-
law: C+

Spot the odd one out. I DARE YOU.

My friends got married in the weekend and went to Samoa for their honeymoon. I'm pretty sure they lost all their belongings they took there but they've arrived back in Auckland safely, which is a mind-blowing relief. Honestly, everytime I see a news update about it I just start tearing up. (Which isn't saying much because I tear up over almost anything on TV/Movies, hrm).

The sociology tutorial this week centred around the debate of science vs religion. It got pretty heated, but there were no fanatics/fundamentalists in our group so things didn't go as exciting as i'd have hoped. We discussed the attributes of people who are extremes at both ends of the spectrum, but I think I said it pretty succinctly when I noted that an ignorant indoctrinated theist can be just as bad as an ignorant closed-minded atheist. An asshole is an asshole.

My respect for our tutor began diminishing when she recommended that we watch the documentary "Zeitgeist". Yeah okay, that shit was interesting in 2007.. but it's called a conspiracy theory film for a reason. Seriously.. most of the content is completely fallacious, and backed by laughably moronic reasoning. I did take this doco pretty seriously when it first came out, as do a lot of people when they watch it for the first time.. but thankfully I saw sense.

Me: Can you bring my heels to town tomorrow?
Tony: I'm not carrying your heels around all day.
Me: Why not? If you are secure enough in your masculinity, shit like that shouldn't bother you.
Tony: ..Do you consider me very masculine? (he was drinking a massive chocolate smoothie with extra maple syrup at the time)
Me: Fair enough. I'll get them another day.

big day out

Oh, the irony imbued in the title. I havn't left the house (let alone my room) this entire day.

Big Day Out 2010 is looking to be a festival of recycled acts -

muse - 2004, 2007
powderfinger - 1994, 1996, 1997, 1999, 2001, 2005
lily allen - 2007
eskimo joe - 2002, 2005, 2007
grinspoon - 2000, 2002, 2005, 2008
the mars volta - 2004, 2006
dizzee rascal - 2008
karnivool - 2008
peaches - 2002, 2004, 2007
kasabian - 2007
midnight juggernauts - 2008
rise against - 2005
magic dirt - 1995, 1996, 2000, 2002, 2004, 2006

Also, Bowie has definitely been ruled out as a performer. BDO staff asks that we do not blame them for it, and in fact we must blame ourselves for the fuckton of rumours we have been spreading on the internet through our blogs and such. I mean, we couldn't help it if we didn't want a subpar lineup.. but whatever, i'm happy about seeing Muse for the third time.

So at my doctor's advice, i'm being prematurely weaned off my prescription for benzodiazepines. It's taken me a long time to acknowledge that they weren't working, and that they were in fact making me regress to the point that I pretty much feel isolated from everyone I know. Moving on..

wtf?! moment of the week -

How the heck did the New Moon film get these bands on their soundtrack? Shit. Way to degrade yourselves, guys. I mean seriously.. these are even bands that Pitchfork endorses and approves of.

1. Death Cab For Cutie – Meet Me On The Equinox
2. Band Of Skulls – Friends
3. Thom Yorke- Hearing Damage
4. Lykke Li – Possibility
5. The Killers - A White Demon Love Song
6. Anya Marina – Satellite Heart
7. Muse - I Belong To You (remix)
8. Bon Iver and St. Vincent – Rosyln
9. Black Rebel Motorcycle Club - Done All Wrong
10. Hurricane Bells – Monsters
11. Sea Wolf – The Violet Hour
12. Ok Go- Shooting The Moon
13. Grizzly Bear - Slow Life
14. Editors – No Sound But The Wind
15. Alexandre Desplat – New Moon (The Meadow)

oh man.

good progress

fourth day wagging in a row - this does not bode well for exams. i did actually make it to uni yesterday because i had five classes, but went home after my first because i was so fatigued.

"dark was the night" compilation is amazing.

season 5 premiere of how i met your mother was absolutely hilarious - neil patrick harris is a legend, fantastic job hosting the emmy's too. fuck, i am boring today.

most insightful line of 500 days of summer - "just cos some cute girl likes the same bizarro crap that you do, that doesn't make her your soulmate tom."

very pleased

muse 'officially' confirmed for big day out 2010

OH MY GOD inglourious basterds boys..

i can't get enough of them.

HUGO STIGLITZ deow neow.

wagged uni again. how am i possibly expecting to pass this semester?

ahh

summer: all we do is argue.
tom: that is BULLSHIT!

summer: they used to call me anal girl
tom: -spits out drink-
summer: ..i was very neat and organised

tom: we talked about bananafish for like 20 minutes, we are so compatible

tom's boss: lately your work performance has been.. a little off
tom: i'm not following
tom's boss: okay, um, here's something that you wrote last week - roses are red, violets are blue.. fuck you whore

what the fuck

-phone rings, i pick it up-

esther: hello?
other person: *silence*
esther: ..hello?
other person: ah, ah..
esther: hello? who are you after?
other person: ah.. nihao?
esther: sorry.. i think you've got the wrong number
other person: nihao? -unintelligble words/chinese-
esther: no you've got the wrong number!
other person: oh..oh..no, ah. nihao? nihao?
esther: what the fuck

-i hang up-

i realise now that i should've been all, 'ENGLISH MOTHERFUCKER! DO YOU SPEAK IT!' a la pulp fiction.

things are looking up

grades thus far:

sociology: A
english: A-, A

grades pending:

linguistics
anthropology
law (uh oh..)

wow

you know what i really love

chronic insomnia

i really really love it

that's a bingo!

christoph waltz and melanie laurent made this movie.

paris je t'aime

I listened to your texts, your singing, your hopes, your desires, your music. You listened to mine. My Italian, my German, a bit of Russian. I gave you a walkman. You gave me a pillow. And one day, you kissed me. Time went by, time flew and everything seemed so easy, so simple, so free, so new, so unique. We went to the movies, we went dancing, we went shopping, we laughed, you cried, we swam, we smoked, we shaved, you screamed.

initiative comes to thems that wait

so, this morning i woke up on time, had a shower, got dressed, ate breakfast. put all my books in my bag for uni and grabbed the keys to go to my car. halfway down the stairs, i abruptly changed my mind and decided to stay home. i can't even say what happened, maybe my lack of motivation has become so intrinsic that truanting uni has just become a reflex.

i'm still wavering between sprinting out to the car or staying put...i'm pretty sure this could somehow equate to a strange metaphor for my life.

after uni finished yesterday, i decided to have a nap in albert part. it was so sunny and nice. felt content for the first time in ages.

exogenesis: symphony, pt. 3: redemption is so beautiful, and fastly becoming one of my favourite tracks on the resistance.

let's start over again
why can't we start it over again

whyyyy

must i get in these moods? i'm going to become a hermit. it appears i am destined to spiral into a cycle of perpetual masochism..seriously, i go whole days without talking to anyone because i can't bear the thought of human company which leads to wallowing and going catatonic with loneliness, but then when i am with people i'm still just desperately.. lonely. so i end up by myself again, but i'm still not happy about it.

i am now positive this is the main reason why i have called it quits on every relationship before you can say jack robinson!

who the fuck is jack robinson?

not impressed

i got an A- in my english essay, lowest mark for english yet. very unhappy, this subject was supposed to salvage any chance i had to get into law by boosting my gpa, and now it appears i have to get A's in everything else WHICH unfortunately is neeeeever going to happen. i guess hoping for straight A+'s in english was a tad optimistic :/ ha ha ha.

DAMN it, i have not a clue what i'm going to do with myself when i don't get into second year law.

grumble grumble.

options:

• second attempt at law with a marginally higher chance of getting in
• carry on with my BA and change majors roughly 17 times
• drop out and get a full-time job
• drop out, stay home and sleep/cry/listen to my chemical romance and sinead o'connor on repeat until i turn 40 and/or my mother kicks me out

me burning my textbooks at the end of year 13 exams.. so tempting.

read below

i am such an IDIOT

THE END

apologies for the plethora of non sequiturs

so, after a rowdy night in town i still have yet to go home. leeching off amy's wireless in her flat (she went to work). i hope she doesn't mind that i ate all her chicken nuggets.

the lightning yesterday was magnificent! watching it strike the skytower three or four times in succession was pretty damn awesome.

cute boy is cute. this makes me angry.

lastly, some sage advice from yours truly - stay away from 23 year old brazilians.

shit that makes me angry

friend: well you do it to yourself
me: i do, and thats what really hurts
were those intentional radiohead lyrics
do you even listen to radiohead
friend: no i do not. lol
me: haha was gonna say..
friend: i like one song of theirs i think.. most popular band on last.fm wtf?
me: are you serious!
friend: yeah. waaay over rated if you ask me
me: lol you cant say that when you've barely listened to them, radiohead is amazing.
but who cares musical debates are annoying everyone has diff tastes it's so futile arguing about it
friend: i have given them a try. nothing special just boring mass produced radio rock. thats all i will say about that
me: holy crap are you kidding me?! radiohead is the epitome of NOT being mass produced radio rock
friend: zzzzzzzzz oh sorry what did you say? i sorta zoned out for a second there

law test was a disaster. sociology test tomorrow.

what msn conversations at 1am look like

Cummins says:
ekkk
sickkkkkkkkkkk
incest
esther says:
what do you mean
Cummins says:
60 minutes
dad married his daughter
and had 4 kids
esther says:
alright...
Cummins says:
they had sex yea
esther says:
o_O
doesnt everyone have sex with their dads
dude
holy shit dude
Cummins says:
lol
esther says:
tell me its normal
fuck
Cummins says:
awkwardddddddddd
esther says:
seriously..
oh man

esther says:
would you still be my friend if i gained 100kgs
Cummins says:
uhmmmm
the warriors
heard they won on the weekend
nice change
esther says:
fark what a betch

~Amy~ says:
you know gin wigmore
that blonde nz singer
she has a rediculously wide mouth
esther says:
HAHA i know
you know who else does
demi lovato
its like half her flippin face
~Amy~ says:
HAHAHAAHHAHAHAHHAHA

hurrah! here i am!

fell asleep in law again, which i realised was a sentiment shared by quite a few people upon waking up. i have a test tomorrow! i can not believe how some people go on about how they studied for 10 hours straight or something equally ridiculous, and i am here struggling to pay attention to these stupid notes for even ten minutes. ARGH deadlines for assignments on top of that. ARGH.

also:

never watch schindler's list when you're trying to study

i suspect i have overcompensated for letting my old blog become dormant by posting in this thing every day since its inception.

currently listening to the dulcet tones of billy corgan (hahaha).

things i am looking forward to (this will be presented in a very disorderly and non-linear fashion):

• finishing the first year of uni
• finishing uni
• 500 days of summer
• big day out 2010
  
• not having kids (ever)
• when my unplanned bastard kids finally move out of home so i can retire in peace after winning the lottery
• dinner
• the resistance (14 september! so close! anticipating a leak though)
• going to the pub
• my hair getting really long
• cutting off an inordinate amount of my hair after it gets really long and hearing people go "ooh wooooooooooooooooooooow!

a+

guy: can i buy you a drink?
girl: i have a boyfriend.
guy: well i have a goldfish.
girl: what?
guy: oh i'm sorry, i thought we were talking about shit that doesn't matter

hrm, should've stayed home

every few weeks i go through periods of acute misanthropy in which i don't want to talk to anyone or look at anyone or do anything. my mum said this kind of thing must be reasonably hereditary, because in his late teens my brother went through several bouts of depression (which i don't have btw) coupled with alcoholism and a general hatred for the human race, as did/does my father AND his father. although the trend appears to lie isolated in the males of our family, i definitely take after my father more than my mother so.. it must be indicative of some brainfuckery in our bloodline :S

so, pretty much 3/4 members of my immediate family are either raging alcoholics, chronic smokers, have sociopathic tendencies or all of the above (throw a bit of nihilism in there)

the party last night was average, to say the least.

here's a departing gift to balance out the mood in here - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B0pKdXgNDbo

milla jovovich can sing, eh?

WOW i'm BLOGGING. BLOG BLOG BLOG. BLOGATHON! BLOGOLOGY! YOU BLOGGING BLOGGIST! beep beep.

i am restless. need to party.

so i had the scariest nightmare. i was in law, and the lecturer was endlessly ranting on about doing about 50 pages of course readings, and then proceeded to analyse the aforementioned readings to death, after which he went on to tell us that we have a test next tuesday :O

it was then that i had a bewildering revelation. it was not a nightmare. it was.. REAL LIFE!

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! (real monsters)

but things turned out alright because i fell asleep, and when my friend woke me up it was time to go home. bliss.